The First Day of Kindergarten
by leighI am emotionally drained. Did not realize it would hit me THIS HARD. I’ve sobbed two nights in a row - once when I looked down at our sweet dog Milo and remembered bringing Alyssa’s hospital hat home for him to sniff when she was first born, and then next when I walked past her 1 year old handprint and photo.
She’s almost 6. She’s totally ready. She’s excited. I’m so happy for her. Why is my heart breaking? Maybe it’s because I’m realizing that MY motherhood has changed. I am no longer a Mommy to babies, with a couple mornings a week of preschool and playdates. This is the beginning of a new phase, and while I’m looking forward to parts of it, I am so, so sad to let the other parts go.
As the bus was pulling away, little Haylie said it best: “I’m going to miss her.”
So, those of you in the ‘baby’ phase of motherhood - don’t rush it. Don’t worry about having little to no time for yourself. Don’t add an extra day of preschool so you can run more errands. Just have fun being with these funny little people. I’m so glad I did.
